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Perhaps most of you knew that I didn’t make it to my Island Province. Now that my vacationing is over, I hate going back to work. Life is going to be boring believe it or not. All I got was a welcome with piles of files of homework sitting flawlessly on my table. Some bunchies of nosey smug at work of course greeted me with a big “FINALLY, YOU’RE BACK!” things about my holiday. Of course I said, “it was GREAT”, although what was in my head is that “it was pouring all the time in the Philippines and I didn’t enjoy much the sun”. How idiotic!
I’m such a bastard, I mean for making up such crap. I know they wouldn’t mind me telling lies. No one could ever really imagine that I’m not telling the whole truth. Did I feel guilty? No. Because I really did went on a holiday, just that I wasn’t really there. In short, I spent my holiday here, just minding my own business, writing shits in my blog everyday then thought, fook the holiday, I screwed it all up and wished I could just be smarter enough to change the plan right away. It took me days of being all upset then begun thinking about what to do next, and you know I won’t just sit here and do what I didn’t want to.
To create more lies, I brought them three plastic homemade polvorons which my Auntie gave me during her recent visit to Hong Kong. I was suppose to share the ’sweeteners powder’ with my brothers, but what the hell, I thought I’d use it as a bribe, to making it even more convincing. It has the “Made in the Philippines” printed on its packaging, so it looks as if that I’d actually went home. I was laughing inside my stomach for actually making them believed that. Although I kept it quiet to myself, I would never want to share the whole real story.
I know that lying is morally wrong. It corrupts the important quality of my being human. I do argue with myself sometimes that all persons are born with this so-called dignity. This dignity derives from the fact that we humans are uniquely capable of freely making our own decisions, setting goals, and guiding our conduct by reason. I think it’s my power of a free choice to respect that power in oneself and others.
So then I lied. It was never easy. I realized that things I say would leads people to decide whether they would know the truth, or will probably know that when I lie, it will bring more good than the truth. I know it will bring some issue later in case they’d find out. However, it didn’t give me that single guilt. One asked, “you didn’t seem to look like you went on a holiday”. I guess, there’s nothing there that helps me suggest to think of some silly excuses. There was this mixture of feeling that wants me to tell them the truth but here I am, covering up the answers again and said, “I was always out late drinking with friends, coming home early in the morning so it gave me no choice but to sleep and forget to eat”. Little did they know that I’d been eating dimsum from the microwave, barred inside my flat, smoking a lot, blogging all the time and enjoying the cans of coke which I’d suppose, spending already the time with the rest of the family.
Either way, with all the reasoning and lying, it ends with the commitment to follow through with what I determined the right thing to do. Who cares if I didn’t go? Who knows if I lied? Who gives a hoot in the face if I’ve been a bad guy? I think that turning off my cellphones during the entire “holiday weeks” helped them realized that I was actually home in the Philippines. Besides, I was really enjoying my “holiday” here. It doesn’t really matter where you want it to be, at least no one was bothering me.
On the other side of the story, few of my friends knows that I didn’t went away. I’d be busted if someone would spill the beans. Granted they did tell somebody in my table, I will have to think of one clever answer ever again to make them believed that the most deadliest weapon we possesses is our tounge.
But work, like life, continues. Summer can’t come soon enough for me this year for so many reasons.
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it’s okay…it’s sorta, kinda human nature to fib here and there! don’t be so hard on yourself K…
cheer up and let’s go have more ice cream okay?
It’s all good C. I think lies has becomes the second nature in humanity. I probably did too little or no damaged with my story but I was saving my ass there.
“Did I tell you I used to be a in a band”? Now, that’s a lie but more or less true. Who knows one day I’ll be. hehehe. I think I lied when I asked you an ice cream. What I really really (Yo’) want is an egg tart.
Come on K sing with me: (press play)
Deny lang always k. miss u… mwah!
http://xthost.info/angelxia2/Diana%20King%20-%20Lies.mp3
Oh why, oh why tell me la la la lie lie.. ma ba ba ba bye bye.. I’m o o ohhh k. Don’t deny… nay nay nay.
That reminds me of someone who lied all the time because she wanted herself to sound good. There are many different lies, I think she’s doing that to protect herself. But… she’ll always be a bitch.chi chi chi.
I’ve downloaded the song “Lies”. Thanks.
wow! i’m impressed with your lying skills.
don’t worry, k. As long as none of your officemates read your blog , your secret is safe
It’s not that I’m always in a habit of doing this but I am sometimes driven to lie by fear usually of what will happen if I tell the truth. I should have not told them I was going home then this thing would never had happened.
On a day to day basis, we all lie. Say, if your friend bought a pair of jeans in low-raise and she was 3x fatter than you and u say, “Wow, it looks good on you”. Then that’s a lie because few of us would dare to voice about the truth, for fear of damaging our relationship with other people.
But really, you look beautiful in your bangs (referring to the picture on your “about” page). It’s true.
PS. at the moment, no one from my Dept is actually reading my blog, because nobody knows that I’m using the internet. Pero, baka hindi ko lang alam. UUNGA! methinks: remove history, cached, temp files ASAP.
Well, no one can judge you, K, because no one can claim to have hands any cleaner than yours …
Jack, that’s a LIE. hahaha.
I think I do joke all the time when I reply to comments, some of them are just for the sake of getting a laugh or two. So can you help me think, when is a lie not a lie?
So it’s really up to me, I’d better makes sure I don’t get caught.
Will it be different if they knew that you had your holiday somewhere else instead? A holiday is a holiday regardless of where you spent it at. Hey, folks feign feeling ill to avoid having to go to work all the time. No one should be that self righteous. I’m glad that you are genuine about it and did not attempt to sugar coat your words.
Everyone in my Dept knew I was going home. Imagine, few of them gave me some list to buy, esp the dried mangoes. I didn’t compromise but I know they would expect something else.
Say you logged in to some chat sites and when asked about your “ASL”, you type “18 (I like this to be my actual age hehehe), gorgeous and lives in NY“. It is not that we must lie about our details, but since Internet is a wide electronic media, we removed our identity from the reality. Infact, nobody seems to be telling about the truth of themselves anymore.
And most of the time, I’m scared my own picture here can be exploited, become famous then my life becomes LARGER than the moles on my face. ;).
Now, this entry about lying.. brought back bitter memories
And that pic up there… just one word, Whoa!!
I’ll give you an honest answer, it wasn’t my mouth in the picture Asha. Well actually, the owner of the pic named it “My Name is K”. I did not mean to intimidate you but really, what were you thinking? hahaha.
Well sometimes, things just don’t turn out the way they’re meant to, sometimes we are forced to lie for the sake of protecting somebody, say a best friend, et al. The irony is that, we lie so that you’ll be called honest. There’s variation types really.
So do you mind sharing us those “bitter memories” pls?
I am not sure when a lie is not a lie. I think a lie is always a lie, but we all do it. The standard answer is when it does not hurt someone, then it is probably OK. I try not to though, but I can’t point fingers at anyone who has lied, because I have done so, too! The Jim Carrey film Liar Liar, interestingly, is on right now as I type!
Jack I can’t believe you’re watching that movie cuz I’ve sworn a lot watching it. DUMB. So it’s OK to lie? YEHEY! *making funny faces to trinity*
Uuuhhh!Guilt!
I like that.Lmao!
K,in my circle of friends i am known for being straight and cutting to the truth.It saves me of a lot of other explanations and guilt.Some hate me for that,some appreciate me more.
But it happens that i give them a lie at times, to get rid of them or simply because i am not in the mood to tell them a bit of truth or a damn thing.
Sometimes,we close ourselves to do some soul search or chill ,and we don’t want them to know that they might be the reason or that we are running away from them…so we lie to them.
I guess,most of us will lie at some point..from a big lie..to the most common lie:”You’re looking good”…if not to look good in someone’s eyes,then to protect someone’s feeling.
Stop feeling guilty!What’s done is done.
But you can actually tell them the truth.You’ll feel better and you won’t be thinking all the time that someone will bust you.
Plus,you’ll free yourself.
LMAO. I hope I din’t sound exagerrated in attempt to explain my side. I do think that when everything just depends on one tiny lie, I forgot that in order to correct one lie, seven others have to be told. I know there are hazards on lying, I may lose many of you for sharing this little act will now have give the impression that I’m untrustworthy. It will damage the good reputation of this blog. HAHAHA.
No I’m still not telling them. Call me a coward but I’ll stick to keeping it that way.
Yes K.,it’s ok to lie.
But if you keep making faces,i will make you feel guilty about lying.
One more thing…what if those people you’ve lied to they’ll find your blog and BUST you?
psssst…. and ur telling me u have tons of work to do and yet look and this? hahahahahaa K kakatuwa ka talaga. miss u k!
Believe it or not, after posting on my reply to trinity, I’ve rushed down to my kitchen because it smells like burning. I have actually light my cigarette in the oven and forgot to turned it off. I couldn’t find my lighter so I used the oven. And left the wooden cutting board in it along with my water kettle jug which I placed on top of the wooden board, the cords were slightly burnt and the wooden board badly in shape. THANKS GOD my kitchen is SAFE. (still shaking) FOOOK! FOOK! FOOK!
psssst…. and ur telling me u have tons of work to do and yet look at u, busy with ur addiction. can’t blame u k. hahahahahaa K kakatuwa ka talaga. miss u k!
I’m at home now YURI, I made that long comment in your blog at work. Ssshh I play and work at the same time. But whenever I planned of ‘playing’ and then it starts to get busy. You know, when it rains, it surely is pouring. I hate that!
… MY WOODENNNNNNNNNNNNNNN CUTTING BOARD IS BADLY BURNTTTTTTT. I NEED A REPLACEMENNNTTTTTTT!
For crying out loud. LMAO. Stupid cigarettes can be very disasturous.
I’m not watching Liar Liar, but it was on TV when I was typing. There’s only one good scene in it, anyway—you know the one I mean.
It’s not OK to lie, but it’s just that, short of Jesus Himself, no one can diss you for it for they would be hypocrites.
It is as though that, once you commit, it will doom you for evermore, and no mercy for you.
.. ok I’ll lie for just a little bit and after that will have a lenghty LIE-FREE time for a while.
Works for me—I think that is a good balance.
But how about my burnt wooden cutting board? Who’s responsible for that?
You know, I started thinking that coComment is surely an evil. It takes away my time to keep on replying. I didnt know that the kitchen was already on fire.
Mayday, mayday… *beep*
It’s karmic, I’m sure it is …
You see, if you didn’t lie, then you wouldn’t have blogged about it, and spent time replying. I think you can consider the karmic debt paid!
OK that’s it. If not for this whole damn lies, we wouldn’t be here expressing our thoughts. LMAO.
But true, it’s the KARMA effect. GIVE ME BACKKKK MY wooden cutting BOARD!
Maybe through the good stuff you are doing, someone will gift you a replacement board?
… checking on the Amazon now. If I pick the good ones, I’ll let you know. hahaha.
Jack was watching the movie for some documentation.Ehehehe!!
See K,that’s one more reason to stop smoking…so your kitchen can be safe.
“I’m not watching Liar Liar, but it was on TV when I was typing.”
I think he’s lying. How can you not watch when his TV was already on? Liar! Liar!
Easy: because the TV is in the next room and I leave it on for white noise.
Well,my tv is on all the time and most of the time i am not watching.
Jack & Trinity you two reminded me of my Mother. She stays infront of the TV but never really watch, it’s easy for her to falling asleep while it’s ON.
God K, but of cos I knew the lips wasn’t yours.. I know yours.. Hahaha…
Anyways, I don’t mind sharing my bittersweet memories.. but when I’m ready to
Ps: I like your reply comment, somehow it just made me smile for a moment… thanks K. Good night. (tsk… it’s bedtime here)
Asha, it meant “read my lips”. It wasn’t me obviously, I know. Well many of us engaged in so many nonverbal forms such us, we use fragrances, we grow our hair, you put lipstick, etc so the picture could really tell that a mouth is lying, and it worked.
I would think lying helps too. It’s a talent built into our brains and helps us accept our wrong behaviour. So share the story, or email it to me? haha.
its a funny lie… it bugs u becuase its such a big lie you pulled but funny coz no one will know. So creative….
lezgo tom and jerry
Unfortunately, it didn’t BUG me at all, SS. The lie there was that I din’t make it to the Philippines but I was really having a holiday. The funny part there was the POLVORONs. I still thought about it and laugh instantly all by myself. I’ve learned from it I suppose - well normal people like us do create and put a lot of effort into sending inaccurate messages sometimes. It’s pretty obvious it happens every day in our blog too. We put nice words, nice pcitures of ourselves to look good for others. We also choose our friends who looks and likes the same thing we like. We can fake orgasms, and have some flashy smiley in our yahoo conversation with a big LOL even if they aren’t funny….blah blah blah… so many things in the list…
[...] I will learn how to cheer up, I know it’s easy to smile, to laugh - it’s free so I hope you are doing it too. Quit smoking, right Trinity? And buy a new wooden cutting board and a kettlejug. They were badly burnt because I was lighting my cig in the oven and forgot to take the damn cutting board away. I was busy replying for more Lies. So how would you call that again, Jack? Karmic. [...]
Huh?Are you suggesting we are napping in front of the tv?
And that’s another part of addiction, turning the TV on is more addictive than tobacco. And hey, it’s good, there is nothing more refreshing than a quick nap (esp infront of a TV).
ur polvorons are wicked!
Who couldn’t resist? It’s a homemade polvoron from the Province. I didn’t try them at home and ended up eating them in the office. Funny, huh?
Yes, I just like a bit of noise. I am happy with the silence as well, though once upon a time I used to have CNN on. Then, the old CNN frequency went to a satellite service and I lost that one.
Oh,i love CNN…
The silence though is something i long for.A silence who’ll hurt my ears..just like the silence in the Morroco’s deserts.
I’m craving for these services. I don’t have a cable TV in my flat as I used to be out with friends. Since now that spending weekends with friends becoming so boring, I might add a little addictions on watching the news (I swear I never watch news) and HBO’s.
C.: I have never been to North Africa, though I would love to go. K, I have opted to not get cable or satellite, either. I have little time for TV as it is, while when I do watch it, there is nothing I really like. (Exception: I do watch Sensing Murder these days.)
I haven’t been there either,Jack but you don’t need to be in the desert to know its effect.
When you are at the beach try to pay attention to the sound around you.The sand makes it all a bit silent.
Now try to imagine the desert with nothing but sand around.
Some people i know have been there and some others are living in some sandy areas.They say is beautiful.
K,watching tv is one of the things to add to your list in changing things in your life.
I don’t get the CNN or BBC through the cable channels.I get it through the normal transmision…or whatever you call it.
I’m getting that soon. My brother is coming over to help me sign for the cable network. But I can’t sit watching TV without a… cig? a…. coke? a…. coffee? Hahaha.
Amazing, C. Nice way of imagining and even meditating. Maybe meditation and getting into some new-age thinking could be a smoking substitute?
Coca-Cola and coffee are probably bad for you, too, K! We need to think of something else …
(CoComment has stopped working for me, incidentally.)
Yup, coComment went CoCo on me. Not working anymore. I read that it will be integrated with wordpress plugin. Well…. I guess that’s it.
Oppps, looks like it’s back.
Mine’s still acting up—just now it recorded a comment from me as being from a ‘non-coCo user’. The blog and post titles are no longer correctly recorded.
Looks ok to me tho. Guess what, I think I have read a thread about me being on TOP. I was surprised people are taking these coCo so seriously. I mean, I’m just replying to comments, that’s all - I din’t know its turning into a “battle”. I’m just naive maybe.
Every couple of weeks I do stumble across the top commenters and top blogs at coComment. I have to say some people do take it too seriously. It’s just a service, and I would still use it even without those “top 20” pages. But I am glad to know you are on top! Well done!
coComment is getting popular nowadays. However, it’s always difficult to use it for blogspot user, most of them uses haloscan commenting & the pop-up commenting form for blogger.
Maxthon is good with the pop-ups since you can activate the bookmarklet from the drop-down menus, but it seems to get the Haloscan post ID number and not the comment itself! For Blogger though, I copy the commenting URL and remove the ‘&ispopup=true’ from it, so coComment can more accurately capture the title and subject.
I still have difficulty with blogger pop-ups comment box. It doesn’t seem to work with Firefox (maybe I just don’t know what to do) but that’s OK, I don’t complicate things - I’ll stick to the easy way.
I’m enjoying the new IE Beta version tho - looks clean but I do use Firefox as my default.
You should stick with the browser you feel most comfortable with—it’s my old principle of ‘Technology is here to serve us’. I do believe Firefox and regular IE have problems with the pop-ups. Have you tried looking into the coComment support forums and requesting it? I am sure they know about it though.
Guess what, last night I found this Opera browser in beta version and tried it out. I’m a browser geek. It’s pretty nifty but there’s a drawback with the coCo functionality, it won’t work. But that’s OK, I’ll settle with the Firefox if I’m using the coCo, that’s probably easier.
hello k I wanna know the name of the author and the tittle of that song please:
K Says:
April 29th, 2006 at 6:20 am
Oh why, oh why tell me la la la lie lie.. ma ba ba ba bye bye.. I’m o o ohhh k. Don’t deny… nay nay nay.
thanks